testing, testing, testing ! I grabbed a projector from the gear lab and it worked waaaay better. I also chatted with Liv and Jazz and they told me that to get rid of the full rectangle to use lighting within the space and it works!
Quick mid week break I did some art handing again at KMAC and it was v fun ! I got to pack up the exhibition and next week I come back to install the next one ! I am definitely feeling more confidant with my art handling shit. Last time I felt nervous about fucking things up, but this time I kind of embraced the fact that I have no idea what I am doing and was honest with the people I was working with and it turned out better.
Okay so back to my work ! Since I feel pretty good about the projection, now for the audio. I didn't like the video but I did like the audio so I isolated it and have been messing around with it. So far I've removed anything that I don't enjoy (plane going over the studio, people talking outside, etc.) Its down to 8 minutes now, I'm working on blending it together so its seamless / you cant tell that its all cut up ! After I test that out I might do some layering just to see what thats like. It's all new a scary...
The day finally came and I recorded my performance piece !
So thankful to Max and Simon for being my best buds and supporting me literally !
I ended up going for about 10 minutes moving my body through the ceramic form. We recorded video of course I did this at the U of L crit space. Overall I felt really disappointed in how long I lasted, I was hoping to go for much longer but my arms were starting to give out. I decided the next day upon reviewing the video that I didn't like it very much, but luckily Max was kind enough to take photos of my after the performance, which I love.
Even though I feel like the bruises all over my thighs are more powerful, this image is much more striking and unfortunately I found all my tattoos kind of distracting. But the one of my butt I think really encapsulates the idea of the work and demonstrates the physical effects that the ceramic had on my body !
I decided that I wanted to remove the parts of my body that were not within the frame of the ceramic for the projection/final piece.
My first attempt at projecting didn't exactly work out as planned. I hated the way that the projector was working in general (I was using U of Ls) and was not happy with how the entire rectangle of light surrounds the image. Checking in with bestie Tiffany about these issues !
More contemplating this week, my little brain never stops thinking ! How rude honestly....
I brought my voids over to the sculpture studio since thats where I want to record my video. Bigger space and better lighting options. So I sanded both of them, since my bod will get so close I wanted to 1. make sure I don't hurt myself 2. create a skin-like feeling 3. prepare the smaller one to be placed in a gallery setting where people will be encouraged to touch it. I also made sure that I can actually fit myself through the larger one ! And guess what I can ! It's a bit of a close call for my hips/ass but I can do it, and I actually am glad that it isn't easy, however I do worry that I will be asking a lot of my friends in terms of them having to hold it still for me.
Also, Scott and I had a really great and enlightening conversation about what I am looking to do. Very thankful for him taking notes for me ! When you make art, things seem to move really fast. I probably should open up the old artist statement and rethink what interests me at this point. Side-stepping a clay based practice and attempting to open up my making relationship has definitely shifted my perspective. I've been thinking a lot about the conversations that I had an NCECA. One with Wes about being uncomfortable in the studio is what encouraged me to imagine this performance/video piece. I also had a very long talk with my little sculptor ex about who I make art for myself or the audience. That has really made me wonder about my art. The truth is that I simply make for myself but I desperately want the audience to understand. I do hope that even having that realization will allow me to think more intently about what I am asking of them and how I want them to feel when they look at my work.